(: kinda seems hard to believe that SYF is over, it's a lot more shocking than concert, somehow. BUT IT WAS GREAT ANYWAY, despite missing notes, despite messiness, despite all the mistakes, because I loved that (i personally think) we have the most expression, the most NATURAL movements. When we walked off the stage, it was like i still had that smile plastered on my face, but inside I think I was close to crying - maybe because we could have done better, but more because what we've spent so long preparing for, worrying for was over. But then again, the macho me does not cry, so too bad you didn't get too see me embarrass myself.
I love that before SYF we were dissing every team that came along. Maybe it might come across as mean to some, but inside I know it's because we feel the PRIDE to be a part of RAFFLES RINGERS. It's like we look at other schools' uniforms and suddenly feel proud of our gown, our elegant and pretty gown <3 that we enjoy complaining about. Because really, it's because YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST TO ME<3
I love that you guys are the only people in the world who can make me cry who I don't actually mind seeing me cry(: [i know i didn't but still] you are my world [v2.0!] plus i think it's really sweet the way we're always here for each other.
SO. Back to SYF. Actually much as I'm glad we got a Gold, i think part of us, the part that was angry that cedar got honours, the part that felt they didn't deserve it, was a part that felt that we could have done better. Because trust me RAFFLES RINGERS REALLY IS THE BEST, whether people are gonna acknowledge it or not. But it's ok to feel disappointed i think, and anyway gold is really really good i am amazingly proud of everyone now i can't even concentrate on work and stop thinking of SYF. And besides maybe we shouldn't always look ahead at who's better, but look behind and see how far we have come. Before, we said that the goal was just as important as the journey, but now we reached the goal, we should just turn back and SMILE AT HOW FAR WE HAVE COME<3
And another thing(: Today i looked at the sec ones and thought of ourselves two years ago. It seems so long ago actually, when we were giving stuff too, when we were so worried for our seniors then so happy for them. It didn't matter that we didn't play because we were part of the team. Then after SYF in sec one, we started to fit into the CCA, started to spend more time with each other, then arts fest! After that i really loved you guys<3 Then it was concert last year which i am never going to forget in my life, because there will never be another group of people sharing my emotions, sharing my tears, sharing my joy. AND NOW. SYF is over. Another milestone down(: then we have 1+years together before we separateD: WHICH JUST MEANS I'M GOING TO EXTRA EXTRA EXTRA TREASURE MY TIME WITH YOU GUYS! we still got a long way to go!
I LOVE YOU LOTS take care and jiayou for everything ok! And no i don't get pissed when you guys bully me [DOESN'T MEAN YOU SHOULD], just means i love you too much [to walk away now!]
see you around<3
YAN TONG [loves you a lot a lot a lot. how many times did i say that already!]
