Hello my dearest friends.

I was surprised to see our blog flooding with new posts and all the essays, especially the long ones by Miao Ling and Yan Tong. Thank you everyone for bringing me to the verge of tears again. I won't be able to write as long and 'cheem' as the others- it's my first post (I apologise for that) and I have never excelled in English nor Literature.

Honestly speaking, really, I was not feeling confident about the concert at all. My brain just didn't seem to be able to take in all the notes and songs we were supposed to memorise, and all the dynamics and everything. My head just became blank when Ms Goh gave me her fierce stares during practices, and I dreaded Moon, remember bar 50?

I still can't believe that the concert is over now. Not just over, but it was a tremendous success! And it was a wonderful experience, both to the audience and us. But of course, the former would never understand what it really means to us. Well, now Moon is one of my favourite pieces, really, because it is one of the pieces that enabled us to express so much emotion, and because it brings back so many memories.

Thank you batchmates (of course, the CCA and Ms Goh too.) for all we went through. All the support, the laughters, the tears, the jokes. I can't imagine what ringers would be without all of you. This journey was possible and enjoyable because we were there together, united and singular.

Thanks for making me cry, you made me release my tears that were rotting somewhere deep inside me for two years. I couldn't suppress them, really. Strangely, the more I tried to laugh, the more the tears that came flowing from an unknown place in my heart. Even then, I enjoyed the crying session under the staircase because everything we went through was really worth the tears.

Well, I would be lying if I say I don't feel relieved that the concert is over now. But I must say that I miss it terribly, be it our camwhoring, growling at the emcees, squinting under the spotlight, or scrambling under the table to find your umbrella for Sayang. I can't believe I need to wait two more years for another concert to come!

I think I didn't exactly know what the word 'love' really meant until last night. But I know now. And I really want to tell you right now, that I love you.

Shinae.